assalamualaikum gais. :)
long time no update. lama dah tinggal. and today. now im here.
stalking a few person. and suddenly teringat kenangan lama. but i think it is not worth to call it kenangan kot. so better call it cerita lama jela okay.
stalking stalking stalking and teringat balik my life a few years ago. how bad i am at that that time. and how much problems i had caused because of that. aku kenal macam macam jenis manusia. and i got hurt pretty bad at that time. sangat kecewa sampai rasa macam. macam. macam. macam ntah la. aku taktau nak guna words apa untuk describe perasaan tu.
mungkin cara aku salah. aku terlalu eager nak berkawan. sampaikan people look at it different way from how im thinking. and that time everything happened. and everything went wrong. orang ambik kesempatan bila aku buat baik and so on so on.
almost a year plus plus aku tahan dengan mulut mulut orang semua. people talking bad about me. perli perli aku. hell yeah. at that time i really having a hard time. but alhamdulillah aku berjaya went through it. and here is me. im still alive. :)
but after that incident. i changed. aku dah malas nak layan orang yang aku tak kenal. aku dah malas nak layan orang yang aku tak anggap kawan. aku dah taknak ambik tahu pasal orang sekeliling aku unless they are what i called FRIEND. and aku dah malas nak buat baik dengan orang laen except kawan kawan aku. aku tak kesah pun even sekrg aku tak ramai kawan at least dorang yang sekrg tak menyusahkan aku and tak serabutkan hidup aku. daripada ada ramai kawan tapi semuanya berkawan dengan niat tak elok. tak guna jugak kan. that is what im thinking la. my opinion. aku tak peduli la macam mana korang nak pikir. that is not my problemo pun.
i changed to be a bit cold-hearted because of that. aku tak pernah menyesal dengan hidup aku yang dulu. sebab at that time aku yang buat hidup aku jadi macam tu. so no point pun nak menyesal bagai. just move on. bukak buku baru chapter baru.
so inilah aku. aku happy jadi aku yang sekrg. aku lagi tenang jadi aku yang sekrg. last words before i end this entry. hargai siapa yang kita ada sekrg. just forget it siapa yang pernah menyusahkan hidup kita dulu. i like living my life that way.
so that is it. im done with my luahan perasaan. btw salam ramadhan to all. may this year much better than before.
adios amigos. goodbye.
p/s: thanks to him sebab terima saya seadanya. to you, MNF. iloveyou. lots of love from me, NF :)
