if and only if

expressing the feelings are not easy. but nak simpan pun tak senang jugak.

kalau la boleh nak undur balik masa. i wanna be one of them who will do it.

7 or 8 years before. i wanna go back to that time. and the one thing yang aku nak avoid is the stupid thing called "couple".

like seriously. for me. sampai sekrg. i think because of that my life is ruined. seronok memang seronok. leka kejar seronok dunia sampai lupa seronok tu kejap je. time tu je. but your life panjang lagi. your future pun panjang lagi.

bagi la alasan banyak mana pun. benda dah lepas. menyesal pun tak guna. redha jela.

bagi aku. after been hurt so many times. aku taknak dah semua tu. kalau ada problem whatsoever i prefer to run away. just left things unsettled. just avoid everything anything and anyone yang berkenaan. cuz nanti lama lama lupa la. tapi dunia ni kecik je. lari la jauh mana pun. sorok la dalam mana pun. oneday mesti akan terjumpa jugak. directly or indirectly. so sampai bila nak lari daripada reality. be brave and face it.

mana yang rasa tak elok. elakkan. it is just the matter of you want it or you don't want it. buat jahat buat baik kita sendiri yang pilih. Allah dah bagi akal untuk berfikir. kita je yang sometimes taknak guna. what a waste.

whatever it is. dunia sekrg dah akhir zaman. macam macam benda tak elok jadi. jaga diri. inshaAllah selamat dunia akhirat. ingatan untuk diri sendiri jugak. thanks and assalamualaikum. :)

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changed

bukan niat nak sombong. kau call banyak kali text banyak kali tapi semua aku ignore. aku pun serba salah. i know kita kenal dah lama. dari zaman sekolah lagi. aku kenal kau. kau pun kenal aku. cukup kenal.

tapi kita masing masing dah berubah. as time goes by. kita masing masing dah tak macam dulu. that changes buat aku rasa. hm i think should avoid this guy. reasons ? biarlah rahsia. haha

and yang penting. bukan niat aku nak buang kawan. tak contact tak semestinya kita putus kawan. aku still anggap kau kawan eventhough dah tak macam dulu. masing masing dah besar boleh fikir. benda kecik je pun ni. pada aku lebih baik macam ni. aku selesa macam ni. aku happy macam ni.

aku ni dah tua. dah malas nak create masalah. dah malas nak cari masalah. kau tau apa aku maksudkan. so harap faham. sorry.

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midnight story

normal punya relationship mesti ada pasang surut. kejap gaduh kejap baik. benda biasa la tu. biasa sangat. mana mana pun boleh tengok benda ni.

masing masing ada perangai masing masing. yang okay then okay la. yang tak berapa nak okay tu nak buat macam mana. kena la terima seadanya. itu pun kalau rasa boleh nak terima. if not then leave. apa susah.

bila baik memang la bahagia. bila gaduh bahagia ke ? memang tak la. sakit hati tu ye. masing masing nak tunjuk ego. keras kepala. taknak mengalah. and that's me. why ? sebab aku dah penat bagi muka dekat orang.

cakap la aku ego ke keras kepala ke keras hati ke. aku tak peduli. bila aku bagi muka orang pijak kepala. mungkin dia pun fikir benda yang sama je. aku ni bagi muka pijak kepala. well up to that person la. kita masing masing ada our own way of thinking.

i once anggap relationship ni more important than friendship. like seriously. sebab aku bukan jenis banyak kawan. so i don't care about friends unless my very very close friends.

but sampai satu tahap. aku rasa. relationship ni actually still not worth enough to be compare with friendship. why ? because maybe aku dah experienced macam macam bad things in relationship kot. HAHAHA

so now relationship tu aku letak bawah sekali. kau sayang macam mana pun. kalau you're not meant to be together tak jadi jugak. kalau kau sayang macam mana pun but the other side take everything for granted. tak jadi apa jugak. syok sendiri nak kemana ?

if you want to leave. go ahead. takde siapa yang halang even me. tapi kalau betol sayang kau patut tau apa nak buat. mana nak cari.

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open up your mind

well. once upon a time. someone pernah cakap macam ni dekat aku. " dah ada boyfriend sekrg sombong kan" and my answer. like this. "HAHAHAHA" aku mampu gelak jela. nak cakap apa lagi.

but now berbalik pada kau balik. sekrg kau dah ada girlfriend. and kau pun behave sama macam aku dulu. so aku pun nak cakap jugak la " sejak ada girlfriend ni sombong kan" hahaha seriously. ridiculous gila.

again. well. fyi. this is not the matter of sombong bro. kau je yang rasa macam tu. normal thing la. bila dah ada someone special. nak kena jaga hati dia. see yourself now. kau pun macam tu jugak actually.

but because to me. this is not a problem AT ALL. so this thing never bother me. kau still nak keep in touch or not. aku tak kisah. itu hak kau. lagipun. im the type yang memang tak peduli pun benda remeh macam ni. *peace

so dah nampak kan ? even yourself now behave macam aku. so just to let you know. this is not worth pun nak dijadikan issue.

thank you. :)

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